Carter Malouf....if I had known then what I know now.

I guess for everyone there is someone that they remember fondly. Carter is that one for me. He is the kind of guy I couldn't love then, but would be crazy about now. See, back a few years ago, I didn't have much sense. Not suprising, really. Young girl with no sense. I think maybe that is a prerequisite to being young, the stupidity thing that is. Anyway, back to Carter....he was so sweet and thoughtful. Kind. Those qualities were not the kind I fell in love with back then. Actually, I never fell in love then, I was too busy having fun. As I approach my 36th birthday I am thinking more and more about my choices and what I want now. I almost got involved in one of those toxic and intoxicating relationships again....ALMOST. Anyway, that got me really thinking about how I am stupid in shorter periods now. Instead of being totally immersed in a horrible but intense relationship for a year, I sorted it out in a matter of weeks. It let me know that I can make the same mistakes again and that is sorta scary. Anyway, I wish I could find another Carter. I would fall in love with him now without a doubt. I am lucky to have a Carter in my past to let me know how great a guy can be. Thanks Carter!